Anymore

I never thought that someone can mean so much to me
But now I have a heart crying out about it when you're not here
It hates me, because I pushed you more and more
But now I feel like was wounded with my own sword

I thought I could say goodbye
At least one billion times
After all, you return twice
I mean always

Only when my hands were empty
I realized that I had lost something vital
But now too late to forgive me
Cause you do not say that I am your angel
And I would have gone if you had told me
Through your closed front door
But we both can not figure out what we feel
Because now the tables are turned
If you knew what I've just admitted it
What I can not leave you anymore

You're hard to take that you have lost one, who needed you the most
almost impossible to realize that you hurted the angel
And you missed the chances and spent all the right to go wrong
I have no choice but to hide away in the shelter

I thought I could say goodbye
At least one billion times
After all, you return twice
I mean always

Only when my hands were empty
I realized that I had lost something vital
But now too late to forgive me
Cause you do not say that I am your angel
And I would have gone if you had told me
Through your closed front door
But we both can not figure out what we feel
Because now the tables are turned
If you knew what I've just admitted it
What I can not leave you anymore

Run away from me
I'm tired of being wrong
I bring you only misery
But I'm in a deadlock

Your wings cant raise the two
But you have to fly
I'm begging you
You have to survive

While the sun is low
And the monsters asleep
Run, run back home
Darling, I'm sorry

Only when my hands were empty
I realized that I had lost something vital
But now too late to forgive me
Cause you do not say that I am your angel
And I would have gone if you had told me
Through your closed front door
But we both can not figure out what we feel
Because now the tables are turned
If you knew what I've just admitted it
What I can not leave you anymore

Я никогда не думала, что кто-то может значить так много для меня.
Но я знаю. что моё сердце плачет, когда тебя нет рядом.
Оно ненавидит меня, потому что отталкиваю тебя всё больше и больше.
Теперь я чувствую. словно поранила себя своим собственным мечом.

Я думала, что смогу сказать "Прощай!",
По крайней мере, миллиард раз.
Ведь ты возвращался дважды,
То есть, всегда.

Только когда мои руки опустели,
Я поняла, что потеряла что-то жизненно важное.
Но теперь слишком поздно прощать меня,
Потому что ты не говоришь,  что я твой ангел.
И я бы ушла, если бы так сказал мне,
Хотя бы если закрыл дверь,
Но мы оба не можем разобраться в своих чувствах.
Теперь все поменялись ролями,
Если бы ты знал, я признаю то,
Что больше не могу покидать тебя.

Тебе тяжело признать, что ты потерял того единственного, кому был нужен больше всего.